What I’m doing now

 26th September 2024

The date I told my brother I didn’t get the job I wanted. He said

“So what are you going to do now than?”

Ah👁️👄👁️.

I didn’t actually think about that properly. (I found out I didn’t get the job a week ago.. so am ns why I didn’t think about that) So I’m letting this all out in my blog. Lemme chat💋.

So I graduated.. like 2-3 months ago… 

And tbf, it’s very chill. Don’t get me wrong, I do miss uni at times- but not as much as I thought I would. And I know I’m coming back for a week anyways in November. So that thought in my mind does make the process easier🙏. 

So lemme just go through what’s happened. In short.

From those 2 months. 

I’ve found myself 😩

• Working part-time as a youth worker 🙂‍↕️
• Doing a media internship with my church 🙂‍↕️
• Joining another church🙂‍↕️
• Booking a trips abroad. Oh and seeing Hanz Zimmer. 🙂‍↕️
• Spending more time with my dog, than leaving the house to meet up with friends😳. *I’ve had to insert this in, cause Teddy (my dog) has just jumped over all the storage in our living room-just to sit on me. And I just feel the need to mention about how much I love my dog. I’ve never met anything so similar to me. Me n Teddy. We resonate with each other. Yknow how some people are like…                                                                 

“My dog is my best friend😩”. 

• Yh, my dog is my only friend. Suck on tha—

*I’ve just clocked. This blog is gonna be so long. I’m so sorry. Anyways. Read my yap💋. 

So working as a youth worker… doesn’t really match up to Journalism does it? But, I actually like the job. I’m quite content with it. It serves me well. Short n sweet✨💝

Finding myself doing an internship with my church. I can’t lie. I did not want to do this at all. 

AT ALL🤭🫣.

I genuinely had quite a few times through this experience where I’d be frustrated with myself for agreeing to do it. 

*I don’t acc know why I said “✨this experience✨”, I only started last week, and this week I’ve not done anything cause I’m so ill and next week I’m away. 🫣

Sorry church if you’re seeing this, I do feel bad. It’s been bad timing x

Anyways back to the internship💋. 

When I started, I also just had an interview with a big company. So in my head, I was quite gassed at the idea of getting my “FIRST BIG GIRL JOB😩😍😜” just right after Uni.

*If I’m being completely honest, it was more the idea of me being able to go out to London in a suit and just look professional in that boss ass way.

The job was also full time, and before I graduated, I would tell people that “I wanted to take a gap year and travel🥺😙(original)”. So how would I of been able to balance that? 

I have no clue. 

But I was also applying to other places👁️👄👁️. So In a sense I didn’t really know what I wanted to do. And I still don’t tbf ish, but I’ll talk more about it later. 

Anyways sorry yh back about the interview with the big company. 

So the week after the interview, was when I started with the internship. And I was PRAYING that I got the job, so It’d give me an excuse to leave. I even had a dream that I actually got it, and I cried in it. 

I don’t cry. And I don’t dream about jobs. 

So the idea of getting it, was hyped in my head and I started to think that I did get it. 

With the dream I thought to myself “oh my lawd, God is PREPARING ME TO ACCEPT”. 

*Yh I didn’t get it. So bro was just being mean. 

Right back to the past, so whilst I was waiting for this rejection. I went to a prayer meeting. 

(As I’m also working with the church. I had to go to the prayer meeting).

*I feel like I’ve made the prayer meeting sound like a chore. Icl if it wasn’t for the internship I probably wouldn’t of gone, but I’m glad that I did and I’m glad to continue doing so💋. 

I was the only young person there, and there were like 7 other adults

(I know I’m an adult, but these people were in their 40s-50s etc etc). So I felt very young. And I like feeling young💋. 

However at the start of the meeting, it was a bit painful cause I clocked that the last time I went to a prayer meeting was when my mum was in hospital, and me and my dad went there to pray for her to be healed😬. So whilst the others were worshipping, I was holding back tears lol💋. 

Geez talk about depression. Yawn🥱. 

Anyways back to the prayer meeting. So after that mini moment, everyone just started praying about stuff. I like to pray in my head, so I was just doing that🙂‍↕️. And then, because of my internship- they started to pray for me. It was acc pretty lovely. That was the first time I’ve ever had a group of adults (that I did not know AT ALL) pray for me. As weird as it sounds. It was gen quite peaceful. 

***I’m gonna make them pray for me over every small obstacle I go through!!!👹. 

They also had a couple words for me n pictures. 

*For those that don’t understand christianity. Sometimes when people pray, they get pictures. Or words. And somehow they turn it prophetic🤷🏻‍♀️. Its pretty cool when it actually resonates.

Because all of the words n pictures resonated with me👹👹👹. 

As in, it basically had the same meanings and I actually related to it. And what I got out from it was in short, although I REALLYYYY didn’t want to do this internship, its not about me. It’s about big man (God). So that definitely switched my mindset around. 

I’ve also joined another church, and the people there are sound. It’s in London, so I always feel like a city girlll when I go🫦👠. I’m still quite new, so in a way its like a new chapter.

I AM ALSO IN MY TRAVEL ERA. HOLLA💃🏻💃🏻. So I’ve got Barcelona coming up, and I think I might be going to Prague shortly after!!!!! I’ve been working quite a bit, so this is my way of rewarding myself🙂‍↕️! I’m a bit curious to see how everything will turn out because I’ve planned everything (itinerary, accommodation, flights etc) and my mates quite chill. However I don’t think he’s fully ready for how much we’re gonna be doing. I wouldn’t be surprised if in his recent holls he spent more time in the club, than out on the streets. Whereas this holiday, is definitely more tourism and culture vibes. So I’m looking forward to the entertainment in that aspect lol, perhaps he’ll hate it. But I’ll love it💋.  

And yeah, I’ve genuinely been talking to my dog more than I have to my own friends. I Love it tho. Bro just listens to me. We resonate. No complaints✋.  

Now time to end this blog. So basically, what am I going to do now?

I have  no clue.

Buuutttttt 👹

Buuuttttt🍑

I’m going to live in the moment because the place where I am now. I’m happy with being in. 

If anything changes, I am aware that I have the capability to achieve whatever I want. So I’ll be fine.  

xoxo  Gossip GURL